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Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Leave the past in the past.

I deleted alot of my old entries. I am over that stage of life and dont want to be reminded of it.

Today, I turn a new page.

I can be in control.


Friday, June 27, 2008

Thansk to amy for this quiz :)

HAVE YOU EVER?

Had a one night stand?
kinda

 


Made someone cry?
yep

 


Opened your Christmas presents early?
yep

 


Been online for more than 10 hours in a row?
yessss

 


Pretended to be someone you weren't online?
yep

 


Eaten food that fell on the floor?
yeah

 


Been caught cheating?
nope

 


Been caught naked?
lol.... half naked?

 


Flashed someone?
i dont think so

 


Gone out without underwear on?
nope

 


Got into a fist fight?
only a play one

 


Swallowed bath water?
most likely

 


Peed in the pool?
haha yes, run!

 


Thrown up in public?
ummm.... yes, over the harbour bridge lol

 


Been so drunk you can't walk?
not really i've been a bit wobbly

 

Peed in public?
supprisigly often

 


Broken wind and blamed someone else?
probably

 


Done something mean you regretted?
not really i dont think

 


Ever played pull my finger?
no

 


THE TRUTH?

What's in your wallet?
cards, money, recipts, supre shit... yeah!

 

What's under your bed?
lots of crap

 


What's on that way top shelf or in the very far back of your closet?
Barbies? Toys? Other crap i never use?

 


What's in your under wear drawer?
underwear

 


What's in the trunk of your car?
dont have one

 


What's in your desk or locker?
dont have one

 


Do you have a super-secret hiding place and what's in it?
A 6 inch man

 


Do you feel guilty about something right now, if yes what?
ummmm..... i guess i do a bit, not really though and not telling!

 


What is the most embarassing thing in your room right now?
i dont know

 


Have you done something recently you hope no one finds out about?
YASSSS

 


What is your last thought before you fall asleep?
probably worrying about something


How long have those leftovers been in the fridge?
oh man i once had leftovers left in my fridge for like 6 weeks

 


If I confiscated your computer and took a look around....what would I find?
nothing too interesting actually

 


Do you sleep with anything in your bed?

sometimes my laptop if im too lazy to put it on the floor!

 


What is your midnight snack weakness?
Dairy

 


Have you ever you shop lifted?
not seriously

 


Have you ever vandalized anything?
ummmm.... not badly

 


Ever danced with the devil in the pale moonlight?
EVERY NIGHT


What do you wait until no one is looking to do?
dunno


Have you told the truth in this survey?
yep

 


YOUR FIRST

Drank alcohol?
15

 


Got kissed?
15

 

 

Got arrested?
NEVARRR

 


Smoked a cigarette?
17

 


Lost someone close to you?
always

 


Broken a bone?
this year... my fucking toe!

 

 

Rode the city bus?
??

 

Went to a concert?
ummm.... like 16

 


Met someone famous?
havent

 


Dyed your hair?
yr 8

 

 


Got your own cell phone?
yr 7

 


Got the Internet?
yr 4

 


Joined Myspace?
3 years ago

 


Snuck out of the house?
ummm... a couple of years ago for tristan.... haha

 


Got your own digital camera?
ages ago

 


Got Drunk?
lol... 16?

 


NOW ABOUT YOU...


I Am...

Relieved and in control... for now

 


I Want...

closure on certian situations in my life

 


I Have...

Made the right decision i think

 

 


I Wish..

You'd do what i want you to do!

 


I Hate...

How weak you make me feel

 

 


I Fear...

Being alone

 


I Hear...

HAHAHA "you will burn in hell" - its on a muse song im listening to now!

 


I Search...

For somehting different

 


I Wonder...

What you will do now

 


I Regret...

Perhaps trusting you so much

 


I Love...

The people that are always here for me

 


I Ache...

nowhere

 


I Always...

follow my heart not my mind

 

I Usually...

get fucked around!

 


I Am Not...

who u think i am

 


I Dance...

to forget

 


I Sing...

to be happy

 

I Never...

wanted to let you go

 


I Rarely...

am how i am

 


I Cry...

too much over you

 


I Am Not Always...

like this
 


I Lose...

myself sometimes

 


I'm Confused...

about how your mind works

 


I Need...

a break!



Monday, June 09, 2008

...

I still love you asshole.


I still love who you were.



sigh...


Tuesday, March 18, 2008

My page is purple now!
Hiiiiiiiii.
Ive never been too good an Xanga-ing. I bet i wont ever finnish this blog, so if i do give me a big pat on the back!
um yeah so. My life then.!
Today i had work. Fun. No angry customers... but there was a guy that came in looking for clothes for a party. He was straight supprisingly! And pretty good looking if i dont mind saying myself. Once i got this really seedy old guy trying one 3xs shorts and then coming out to show us that they fit. He said he liked to wear short shorts to show off his figure, so u do the maths there. Im not the lowest on the pecking order anymore! so that means i dont get the crappy job of change rooms. And i saw esther!YAY! she came into my work and we talked, and it was the highlight of my day :)

I never have any time for anything anymore! If im not working, doing performances or doing tafe, or trying to study maths, im trying to fit in friends, boyfriend and just SOME BLOODY TIME FOR MYSELF! lol.... *goes crazy* heheheahahahahahhehehehehehehe.. so tonight after getting maths tutoring from alicia, i finally got some time to myself to do this blog. Rad! And i know only Maggie and Amy are going to read it. HI! Thanks maggie for taking me to ur church last week. Yeah... sorry i didnt have time to go to the seminar, but i thought it was so good with the pastor on sunday. He gave me like a mini seminar in  2 hours by myself.... and maggie. It was really what i needed, cause he focused on prooving the bible was true, which is something i struggle with. so yeah :)

I think i'll post this now :)