elstarr's Xanga

Leave the past in the past.

Wed, 27 Aug 2008 14:04:14 GMT

I deleted alot of my old entries. I am over that stage of life and dont want to be reminded of it.

Today, I turn a new page.

I can be in control.

Thansk to amy for this quiz :)

Fri, 27 Jun 2008 04:31:54 GMT

HAVE YOU EVER?

Had a one night stand?
kinda

Made someone cry?
yep

Opened your Christmas presents early?
yep

Been online for more than 10 hours in a row?
yessss

Pretended to be someone you weren't online?
yep

Eaten food that fell on the floor?
yeah

Been caught cheating?
nope

Been caught naked?
lol.... half naked?

Flashed someone?
i dont think so

Gone out without underwear on?
nope

Got into a fist fight?
only a play one

Swallowed bath water?
most likely

Peed in the pool?
haha yes, run!

Thrown up in public?
ummm.... yes, over the harbour bridge lol

Been so drunk you can't walk?
not really i've been a bit wobbly

Peed in public?
supprisigly often

Broken wind and blamed someone else?
probably

Done something mean you regretted?
not really i dont think

Ever played pull my finger?
no

THE TRUTH?

What's in your wallet?
cards, money, recipts, supre shit... yeah!

What's under your bed?
lots of crap

What's on that way top shelf or in the very far back of your closet?
Barbies? Toys? Other crap i never use?

What's in your under wear drawer?
underwear

What's in the trunk of your car?
dont have one

What's in your desk or locker?
dont have one

Do you have a super-secret hiding place and what's in it?
A 6 inch man

Do you feel guilty about something right now, if yes what?
ummmm..... i guess i do a bit, not really though and not telling!

What is the most embarassing thing in your room right now?
i dont know

Have you done something recently you hope no one finds out about?
YASSSS

What is your last thought before you fall asleep?
probably worrying about something

How long have those leftovers been in the fridge?
oh man i once had leftovers left in my fridge for like 6 weeks

If I confiscated your computer and took a look around....what would I find?
nothing too interesting actually

Do you sleep with anything in your bed?

sometimes my laptop if im too lazy to put it on the floor!

What is your midnight snack weakness?
Dairy

Have you ever you shop lifted?
not seriously

Have you ever vandalized anything?
ummmm.... not badly

Ever danced with the devil in the pale moonlight?
EVERY NIGHT

What do you wait until no one is looking to do?
dunno

Have you told the truth in this survey?
yep

YOUR FIRST

Drank alcohol?
15

Got kissed?
15

Got arrested?
NEVARRR

Smoked a cigarette?
17

Lost someone close to you?
always

Broken a bone?
this year... my fucking toe!

Rode the city bus?
??

Went to a concert?
ummm.... like 16

Met someone famous?
havent

Dyed your hair?
yr 8

Got your own cell phone?
yr 7

Got the Internet?
yr 4

Joined Myspace?
3 years ago

Snuck out of the house?
ummm... a couple of years ago for tristan.... haha

Got your own digital camera?
ages ago

Got Drunk?
lol... 16?

NOW ABOUT YOU...

I Am...

Relieved and in control... for now

I Want...

closure on certian situations in my life

I Have...

Made the right decision i think

I Wish..

You'd do what i want you to do!

I Hate...

How weak you make me feel

I Fear...

Being alone

I Hear...

HAHAHA "you will burn in hell" - its on a muse song im listening to now!

I Search...

For somehting different

I Wonder...

What you will do now

I Regret...

Perhaps trusting you so much

I Love...

The people that are always here for me

I Ache...

nowhere

I Always...

follow my heart not my mind

I Usually...

get fucked around!

I Am Not...

who u think i am

I Dance...

to forget

I Sing...

to be happy

I Never...

wanted to let you go

I Rarely...

am how i am

I Cry...

too much over you

I Am Not Always...

like this

I Lose...

myself sometimes

I'm Confused...

about how your mind works

I Need...

a break!

...

Mon, 09 Jun 2008 06:48:28 GMT

I still love you asshole.

I still love who you were.

sigh...

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Tue, 18 Mar 2008 11:16:07 GMT

My page is purple now!
Hiiiiiiiii.
Ive never been too good an Xanga-ing. I bet i wont ever finnish this blog, so if i do give me a big pat on the back!
um yeah so. My life then.!
Today i had work. Fun. No angry customers... but there was a guy that came in looking for clothes for a party. He was straight supprisingly! And pretty good looking if i dont mind saying myself. Once i got this really seedy old guy trying one 3xs shorts and then coming out to show us that they fit. He said he liked to wear short shorts to show off his figure, so u do the maths there. Im not the lowest on the pecking order anymore! so that means i dont get the crappy job of change rooms. And i saw esther!YAY! she came into my work and we talked, and it was the highlight of my day :)

I never have any time for anything anymore! If im not working, doing performances or doing tafe, or trying to study maths, im trying to fit in friends, boyfriend and just SOME BLOODY TIME FOR MYSELF! lol.... *goes crazy* heheheahahahahahhehehehehehehe.. so tonight after getting maths tutoring from alicia, i finally got some time to myself to do this blog. Rad! And i know only Maggie and Amy are going to read it. HI! Thanks maggie for taking me to ur church last week. Yeah... sorry i didnt have time to go to the seminar, but i thought it was so good with the pastor on sunday. He gave me like a mini seminar in 2 hours by myself.... and maggie. It was really what i needed, cause he focused on prooving the bible was true, which is something i struggle with. so yeah :)

I think i'll post this now :)